JuicyLoveMagic

things i want to share...

i don't know this woman but, her blog, inspires me. and she's purdy.

this season of america's next top model is going to be fun. some cuties. a "full-blown" lesbian, a hot mama with lots of fun hair and a great harlem accent...i would still be on the show if they asked, but the screaming and crying might get on my nerves. (please know that i'm frontin' cuz i'd be screamin' and cryin' with the best of 'em at first. then i'd bring the noize like the ferocious diva on wheels that i am! haha...).

i got the apartment! i move in on the first!! yeah!

i like tyra's new show even though it's a little cheezy. but the world needs some real touchyfeely stuff right now so i'm glad she's around doing her thugthizzle.

i had a supersweet dream that i kissed a good friend of mine. i think it's been a dormant, secret crush for a long time. the denial was deep and my subconscious finally just said, "f*ck it L'Erin! get it together!" not really an active crush at all, but i think we'd have great kisses and even better sex.

i've gained 12-15 pounds since april. i guess that's what happens when i stop exercising and just eat random food (read: bread, sweets, flour, sugar) with limited water. hmph. imagine that. i'm still fly. don't get it twisted. (and no, i did not get that from the girl on america's next top model. i've been sayin' such lingo for manymany moons now.)

my apartment is going to be right fly and mighty cute. i'm really, really excited about it.

people talk yadayadayada about money. but i know it's a tool (just like education, nationality, language...) that can be used to create goodness. i know it's a slippery slope and a mighty fine endless discussion but i just got to say, when you got bread/dinero/cheeze/l'argent, you can do things like donate $10M to the katrina fund without blinking an eye. (a la my girl oprah). and yeah, capitalism (i'm still not much of a fan), etc. but living in this capitalistic society, it can be pretty useful in the case of an emergency such as this...

i am learning how to be an adult, or at least act like it on occasion...

i'm growing my hair out and watching christian television from time to time. some of them have some really good stuff to say. i really like this one woman who was a big deal for a long time then went away cuz her ego was gettin' all big and now she's back being humble and gettin' it together. she even cut off her hair and everything. no, it ain't erykah, lauryn or india. i don't remember her name but she be breakin' it down (to the ground).

i cannot really express how much i miss SisterFire! or the community that it created and sustained. it's the time when i know that i'm in my groove, when i know i'm making a difference and using my gifts. i hate being distracted by the idea of trying to use my gifts to make money. and yeah, yeah, as i stated earlier, i'm living in a capitalist society where that mindset is sometimes required but i hate it (sometimes). i just want to read books, travel, sit on the beach, snuggle with friends, facilitate SisterFire! all over the world. why money? why can't everything just be free? oh...i miss it so much. and i'm so glad it's still going on. thank you ladies. from the bottom of my big, sweet heart. it's gonna happen soon enough i'm sure. but that was real magic. serious mojo i must say.

that's all for right now. thanks for reading.

love,

me

posted by Phoenix @ 10:12 PM