JuicyLoveMagic

and so it is.

i am *. it is decided. i don't know % yet, but that is the next step. i am exhausted today, driven to the point of complete nakedness with myself. this is the part in "women of brewster place" when they break down the wall just to free themselves to the possiblity of what's on the other side. i thought ^ was it, and maybe for the last # years, it has been, but that window has closed now. it's just not ! anymore. i've got to find @ somewhere else, maybe next door or maybe a few continents away. but it's time. it is decided. and for that, i give thanks.

the interesting thing is, the blanks can be filled in with several things in my life right now. people, places, ideas, feelings, beliefs...and they are all changing, making room for something new to take place. my real words don't belong in those spaces. i'm more interested in the feelings behind them, in the rumblings beneath the words. there is no more room for words unattached to meaning or action. my breath is too valuable to just talk for my own ego's sake.

big changes are a happenin' in smallsmall spaces. i am scared. i'm excited. i'm sad that things don't always go as i planned/dreamed/imagined and i'm thrilled about the possibility for more...for something concrete to latch on to.

"it's the end of the world as we know it, and i feel fine."

l'

posted by Phoenix @ 2:32 PM