JuicyLoveMagic

grace

years ago, i remember telling jah that i had forgotten how to cry. and i seriously struggled with yearning for a long, long time. i thought that tears meant weakness, like there was something wrong with me if i surrendered my idea of control and showed some fluid emotions. folks who cried alot (partiularly if they were white women) got on my damn nerves. but i was really battling within myself, striving for the floodgates to break.

in this moment, i am so grateful for Spirit's sweet grace and willingness to work through and with me. tears are the most magic healing serum there is. i am in touch with my heart. beautiful love. giving thanks for the amazing teachers and witnesses who have held my hand and given me delicious space to show up exactly as i am.

there is much to be said for the ability to be one's self without judgement. i think it is what we all want deep down inside. to be ourselves and accepted as ourselves--it's what we all crave more than anything. it's from that space that we're truly able to create the life that we want to live. i notice that when my attention isn't focused on my percieved wrongness, i am able to see life's absolute and limitless potential.

there is nothing like feeling the love that is all around.

and for that i send my most true gratitude to the universe. God. i know that i am love/d. i feel it, i see it. and for that i am so grateful. i have felt deep pains of perceived unlove before, questioning the intentions and actions of folks around me, aching in the emptiness after i had pushed them away.

i'm sure that's why i am so grateful when i remember that there is nothing but love. that's why i am filled to the brim with joy when i allow my heart open and just experience what already is. it is all love. i am love. this is true magic.

thanks god.

and so it is.

always,

l'

posted by Phoenix @ 8:15 AM