JuicyLoveMagic

wake to rise

tonight i realized that i deserve to be in the world. (holding one's breath until black delirum presents itself can be quite an arduous task when one keeps talking.) i realized that i didn't really want silent retreat. instead i was desperately trying to find how i could be 'right' enough to belong in this world. i wanted to hide and fix and figure out something so that i could emerge triumphant and whole and healed right. (i had forgotten that i was so perfect, whole and complete already.)

last week i remembered that i am sufficient unto myself. there is nothing to do other than just be.

this afternoon i woke to the knowledge that i am. i choose to move from that truth. there is no one else to become. there is nothing to prove. i have laid down my amunition and shield. and while i am still going inside, it is not longer for soul excavation, exploration, operation or exploitation. instead i am going inside to sit with myself in sweet love and compassion. i am going inside to let whatever comes come and then to let it go without attachment or observation.

i am exactly who i am. and that is damn good stuff.

i love myself like i love the sun, moon and stars. i am those things too.

giving eternal thanks and praises for letting me be me.

blessed love,

l'

posted by Phoenix @ 10:26 PM