JuicyLoveMagic

hit the wall...

i've just had one of those moments when my entire life culminates and in a pinpoint moment i ask, "what am i doing? why am i here? what's next? what now?"

it (life) has all been great. wonderful. luscious. lovely. joyful. summersun. and it still is. my sky still shimmers with glitter and wonder. i am still basking in the glow.

but new skin is sometimes scratchy, saggy and uncomfortable. it is a learning. a newness. a surrender. that's really what this is about. fudgesticks. motherf*cking trust.

gorgeous wedding dresses and the pefect shoes.
laughter.
support in the most surprising of spaces.
the willingness to let go.
the courage to accept.

i guess this is what life and love and evolution are about. i guess this is it. what the f*ck else am i waiting for? why haven't i lept yet?

(oh, these reasons are absolutely irrelevant. they are simply stories i've told myself to keep myself where i am. there is no complexity here. there is no riddle to solve. there is simply fear and courage. there is resistance and the willingness to do it anyway. the rest is simply for the birds. the rest is simply static on the screen.)

i guess sometimes the willingess to fall helps too.

(note to self: practice release and presence. it is the greatest gift you can give to yourself.)

always,

me

posted by Phoenix @ 1:31 PM