JuicyLoveMagic

after all my logic and my theory, i added mothafucka so you ignant n*ggas hear me...

okay, so looka here, looka here, boi, looka here...i've got an interview tomorrow morning at nordstrom for a full-time position at m.a.c. (chuckle, chuckle...yeah, yeah...) all i got to say is, mama got to eat...m.a.c. makes mucho dinero, especially at nordstrom, and this is only a temporary fix. kinda like me blogging again. it's just a means to an end...and i'm nervous/anxious as hell. i know i've got the skills to pay lots of people's bills but i also have a reputation for being wishywashy and somewhat of a gypsy in the m.a.c. community. i wonder why...maybe it's because i have no interest what so ever in this becoming my career so i don't care if i leave and then come back in a couple of months or a year...and the higher ups might not like that...

i think that's what i'm really sweating. i'm worried that they might be like, "yeah! she's the shit makeup artist! she can beat out anyone's face but damn! that girl don't know what she wants to do or where she wants to be. and she kinda flaked out and bounced (although i did give a legit 2 weeks) when she was a manager" and although that may seem true to them, what's real for me is i know what i want, and m.a.c., nordstrom and selling things just ain't it. but in the meantime, i gotta live.

so...i'm going to go in tomorrow and talk to them. aw shucks! it's just so frustrating...i'll just commit to doing it for the summer, save easy cheddar and then bounce at the end of august. yeah, that works for me. give myself a deadline, then move once i've got some doughknow and i know the peeps in the bay love to be spending their moola. gracious! spend it with me!

laughing at myself,

love...

l.

posted by Phoenix @ 3:10 PM