gratitude.
there are many things to be happy about:establishing and maintaining personal boundaries.
knowing how far i've come and celebrating my own self in this here moment.
sisterfriends.
lovers.
good food.
patience.
not giving a shizahshit anymore.
peace.
sweet sleep.
gentleness.
good green.
breath.
i used to think that adulthood was going to be this easy place of arrival, somewhere i could just connect the dots and draw a beautiful picture. i used to think it was an 'add water and stir' kinda world. now that i've gotten to this land of growntupness, i realize it's just another breath. it's just another opportunity to put one foot in front of the other and be grateful for the journey.
i was disgruntled and angry for manymany moons trying to be this big shit growntup. trying to glow bright into another self. i've learned the power/magic/juice/love/grace of simply being myself here and now, warts and all, lights and everything.
i trust the journey and follow the bridge. i walk outside of the lines, drawing my own with smudged feet and handstand imprints.
i tell my own story of the path thus far, surrendering to guiding ancestor lights who show me the way.
we are each here in solitude, holding the strength of circled community. we stand with one voice combining individual tunes. there is magic here, beneath this land, down in the center of our soul.
i love myself, perfect and whole, alive and complete, confused and assured, simple and complex.
i am a work in progress dressed in the fabric of a world unfolding*.
i am the love, grace and joy that i seek.
and for that i give thanks.
for all of my loving witnesses, i offer my deepest gratitude, especially to the witness of my own heart.
always,
l'
*thanks to ani d., one of my greatest teachers on the path.
posted by Phoenix @ 10:26 PM
5 Comments:
you know, i think that i am most mesmorized by the collection of folks i know - all of us - and how amazing they are for living their own different lives. we were children once and now we are not and everyone has survived the transition (smoothly or otherwise). everybody's notion of 'having it together' is different. and, honestly, i think most don't - despite how well we pretend. we teach and learn so much from each other in this life; i'ts definitely magic, man. i'm a witness. always love,
tmL
ah precious, thank you for your gratitude journal. i am glad to know that you are loving yourself today. you know that this is something you struggle with, and that these moments are to be treasured - and also grow until you've forgotten what it is like to dislike the beautiful woman God made in you.
you, your writing: amazing. siempre.
*bzzzta- we are amazing and you in all your glory are magnificent. thank you for being a witness. it is quite a gift to be one for you. i'm so looking forward to being with you in march.
*kindred-thank you for receiving and witnessing with such great compassion and love. i love this here womyn/goddess/light/creature/spirit that i am. it is good to be me in this here and exact moment. like in any relationship, i am learning and growing more and more gentle and accepting with myself. it is a great journey. i think i'll keep me.
*shine-i am a solarpowered one and you bring me sun everyday. thank you. toujours.
L, shining L...it really warms me when I witness my sisterfriends appreciating themselves entirely. You ARE magnificent and I see this in you, in all forms... You are light, love, peace, inspiration, and growth...I am thankful to have been present, aware, and watching your journey...on the side lines, smack dab in the middle, and from afar...kisses, hugs, kugs to you, dear heart...
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