JuicyLoveMagic

reborn endings/beginnings

i brought in the new year in peaceful, solo retreat, nestled in 10 beautiful acres of northwest woods. i needed to recover something sacred and remember the beauty and power of the earth before stepping into the new year. in preperation, i fasted on raw foods and self-perscribed silence for three days before sitting in circle with soulful community of new friends in a powerful earth mama sweatlodge.

i will not attempt to paint the picture of such a transformative, powerful process. no. just know that earth mother, father sky, sister rain and brother wind have refeshed and woken me new into my beautiful skin and self. to try and talk any more about such an experience would be doing everything involved a complete disservice. but yes. it was pefectly more than i had ever anticipated. the cravings of my heart were fully nourished. i did not want to leave. i could stay on the earth forever.

today, i am back on concrete, moving in spaces of selling, buying, becoming someone new...i am holding on loosely to myself and the knowings that rose in the sweat, in the woods, in the spirit. a sadness has re/emerged and i am craving for the still simplicity of the groves. i miss those spirits and the energy of freedom that is birthed and sustained when consumption, incompletion and fear are not the primary (albeit false) beliefs. i am remembering to breathe fully in the space between...i am staying connected to the prayers that i/we screamed, chanted, cried, moaned, sung in the sweat. i am remembering the voices of the truth before they are bought and sold. i am stepping into my ancient and infinite self.

the rain has washed me new/old/home and for that i am most grateful.

ahse. aho. and so it is.

always love,

l'

posted by Phoenix @ 6:26 PM