JuicyLoveMagic

becoming...

i am living closer into freedom. there is magic here. yes, it is emerging like aunty kathy's tulips, incubating in development until time for surrendering to the sun. he says be the flower, expose all of your inner parts for the pollenation of humanity, spirit, gaia, the world. surrender your heart to the light. allow what is to just come and keep growing up and out. turn inward, move upward. lead with all that is. retire your head into perfect alignment with gentle grace of connection. lead with your heart. all else must be retired.

i had proof yesterday. the universe sends me signs of confirmation. of course we would not be in the same theatre. thank you for validating all that i know, and then leading me to the next dot to connect. it was my missed crash moment. it was divine intervention with a sign blaring "3 infinite moments until enlightment". at least i know now that i am moving in the right direction.

ani does it because she's a joyful girl. i do it because it's all i'm here to do. there are no other options. it doesn't matter how many are dying or how much pain or statistics point me in the right/different direction. no. that will not change my purpose. there is one foot in front of the other on this road. i am doing fine (i must remember). i remind myself in those moments of confusion and emptiness that i am exactly where i am supposed to be, doing exactly what i'm supposed to be doing. the emptiness is the only way. mark the thinking then release it.

but it is a war/fight/battle. sometimes the bloodyfield is only in my head and i must take prisoners and decide the right strategies the free my mind. sometimes it is at home, in bed, through the phone. i bang my heart against the wall, begging it to lasso my mind and guide it to liberation. but my mind is resistant and fights madly to run wild, to control everything, to live into ego's domination. and so i enlist thy will, using it as the source which brings and fuses all together. i instantly become connected and integrated, following your lead to transcend into the greatness that is only open for me to explore.

this is the mark of a journeyed warrior.
this is the note of a phoenix.
and for you, i offer infinite gratitude.

always love,

l'

posted by Phoenix @ 7:35 AM