all is full of love (now playing)
you'll be given loveyou'll be taken care of
you'll be given love
you have to trust it
maybe not from the sources
you have poured yours
maybe not from the directions
you are staring at
trust your head around
it's all around you
all is full of love
all around you
all is full of love
you just aint receiving
all is full of love
your phone is off the hook
all is full of love
your doors are all shut
all is full of love!
all is full of love
all is full of love
all is full of love
all is full of love
all is full of love
--bjork
(sometimes...on a somewhat rare occassion, i wonder if i've made this last decision "right". and then i say to myself,
"self, what on earth else would you have done differently? it hadn't been working for a mighty long minute, right?"
"right." i boldly and defiantly respond.
"then why would you have stayed around?" i question suspiciously, gleering one-eyed into my bruised heart's peephole.
"it felt good to be loved. i believed in the hope of something else happening... a different person emerging in both of us that would let our pieces match." i hope that something in this rationale makes sense to my questioning mind.
"but you two communicated like pitbulls in a cage. it wasn't a good match and you both were exactly who you were, right?"
"right."
"and that was never, ever going to change no matter how hard you rocked the boat, unless the boat decided to pick up itself and walk, right?"
"right."
"and when the lovin' was good, it was pretty ahite, but the rest was just bullshit, right?"
"right."
"and you deserve more than bullshit, even in the worst of times, right?"
"right."
"and you know that love is absolutely everywhere you look, even when your eyes are closed and your heart hurts and you don't want to pick up the phone and you don't even have a phone anymore and you're grouchy sometimes and very process-oriented and sometimes you just want to snuggle and not take care of anyone. you know, when you want to live spiritual evolution and international travel and the action of using capitalism for good and actively participating in stress-free relationships, and free love and theorizing what it means to be a spirit and figuring out, what happened to the revolution? but instead there was always a perpetual conflict to be had/resolved/argued/screamed/defended...and even when it felt like a loveless hell, it was all really love working itself out for your growth?"
"huh?" i my head was spinning...
"well, you know that even in those moments when the world felt like it is swirlling around your head, and you just wanted to grab something that would make even the little bit of the picture make sense--all of it was love. it was some nourishment you needed to grow and learn and move on. you didn't have to stay and tolerate any bullshit in hopes of getting a pretty ending picture at the end. but everything that came to you was a gift. it was up to you to decide why it was coming and how much of it you needed before learning the lesson it had delievered."
"okaaay..." i say. the picture is coming a little bit together now...
"the end and the begining are now my love. don't hold your breath for the revolution. this is it honey. welcome to love. the choice you made was perfect because it was the only one to be made. there is no beloved outside of yourself. you are your own beloved. you are the one you've been waiting for. release your attachment to the idea of another. surrender it into the wind. fall into the joy of being alone with your grief. then let it all go and just breathe. the rest will come naturally.")
posted by Phoenix @ 11:29 PM
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I love that song.
Have u seen the video to that song?
I'm remembering how emotional I was first time I saw the video, which is crazy because I was only looking at two rebots. Right? But whatever. Both robots were the same, similiar, or possibly, different versions of Bjork and watching their movements, coupled with the sensuality of the song, was breathtaking. Homogenic is incredible!
this is a beautiful song. thank you for sharing it....i think that second guessing is okay, but when you do and are tempted to go back and try again, ask yourself whether or not you already have w/out being aware of it - if that makes sense. big-ups to the internal conversation....we learn so much from ourselves, and sometimes we gotta be like, "hey self! dammit, we ain't doin' that again!"....put your foot down, you know? just don't step on your toes =+)....i told my girls (in the ECP summer program) that beginning and end are essentially the same place, differentiated only by the direction we go in from there....hope our voices connect again soon - spirits connected always.
peace....
This song is so beautiful and tells the story of love from the soul of love its self. Passion, pain, and creation...I listen to this song and sometimes cry...just knowing that such a power is out there for everyone to feel and possible grow.
Your roots are growing ... I think its time for some new soil and a bigger pot. What do you think?
that made me cry l' because it's so true
thank you so much for sharing it (again)
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